Monday, May 29, 2006

What a Guy!

Mr. Rogers rocks!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Crash! (not the movie, just my life)

Last friday I was driving with my friend and we were rear ended. Actually, our friends were driving behind us and they hit us because THEY were slammed into.

It was my first accident, and it felt relatively minor, except now my left shoulder and neck hurt quite badly. I finally went to the doctor today and she said to keep taking alleve (although, I was taking it way more than just twice a day, AND also taking excedrin, which she told me to cut out). She also said I can consider getting some massage therapy perscribed, if I need. I feel quite guilty about the whole "I'm in pain" thing, so I told her I would think about it. I am thinking about it, not to mention feeling it, and am wishing I had said "OK, sign me up!"

Not only do I have the achy-ness of my body, but the friendship of the drivers seems a little bruised. One feels like everyone just wants her to pay more insurance, but that's not the case at all. However, I know when one gets into those feelings, it's easier to stay there and only see your own point of view. I truly hope this gets healed, because all these friends are so dear to me, and I hate to see them hurting.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Madeleine Albright

On May 9, I went with a few people from my firm to a luncheon where Madeleine Albright was speaking. Her new book has just come out, "The Mighty & the Almighty: Reflections on America, God, and World Affairs," and we had a discussion about religion and politics, and the role each play on the other.
Before we started with the question and answer period, Secretary Albright went over four ideas that she felt were central to her book, and the way the conversation would go.
The first was that the US HAS to have a moral foreign policy, and not a moralistic foreign policy. She said she tended to work with a form of “Realistic Idealism” on some days and on others “Idealistic Realism.”
The second was that in current politics, there are things the right and left can cooperate with, and there were four issues she pointed out: Stopping genocide, stopping the trafficking of people, helping refugees, and religious tolerance.
The third point was a battle of ideas about integration. Discussing what we’re FOR and not just what we’re against.
The fourth was that we need to understand people as individuals, and not only a person from a group. Eliminate stereotypes and avoid labels. Certainly take a person’s background into perspective, but not using that as the sole way to evaluate them.
Secretary Albright also came up with some solutions to current problems that haven’t been addressed. She felt diplomats need to be trained in the religion of the countries they are working in. She thought the Secretary of State and other leaders need to have religious advisors, and that religious leaders ought to be brought to the table when working on issues that will impact a country that is deeply religious.
The question and answer period was great. I really enjoyed her speaking; she was very sharp and clear, and was able to articulately answer all of the questions asked of her. There were several questions for her about the current Secretary of State, Condoleezza Rice. Secretary Albright told us how she has a special link with her, in that Secretary Rice was one of her fathers' favorite students. She got to know Secretary Rice after Albright’s father died, and were able to work on projects together before either of them were the Secretary of State. I liked how that immediately stopped people from any further remarks about Secretary Rice. All attendees received a copy of her book (which only came out on the 5th of May), and then she signed them. It felt like an added bonus! It was a great event, and I felt privileged to attend.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

700 Hobo Names

I must say that I'm a HUGE fan of John Hodgeman. Click here to listen to 700 Hobo Names. Once you are there, click the big orange button that says "Click here." It might be an investment of your time, but I promise, it will be a fun 20 minutes.

He also contributes to the Daily Show.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Weirdos on the Bus

This is sort of a long-standing theme in my life. I don't own a car, so I take the public transportation, which in Seattle is quite good. As good as any public transportation system is, there is still a higher likelihood of vagrants and weirdos, especially compared to the vagrants and weirdos that are in your car.

Today I was waiting for a bus, and the only people waiting with me were pretty well strung out on some drug or another. One of them mumbled something at me, to which I responded the way I usually do, by telling him that I can't hear him and if he wants to talk to me he needs to speak up and quit mumbling.

Well, he mumbled a little more and then said loudly and clearly, "Your husband is a proud man."

Which cracked me up, and I told him that I would tell my husband he said so. I'm amused by comments like that, because it's odd that someone would assume that another would take pride in someone else. And even odder that those people assume I'm married, which I never correct because that opens a world of problems that I don't need to deal with at a bus stop.

Other than that, and breifly at church, I spent the day by myself. I often enjoy solitude quite a bit, but today I felt too wrapped up in my thoughts. It would have been a relief to quit thinking and be out with people, but it seemed like too weird of weather and too much effort to rectify that. Next weekend, like last weekend, will be full of people and events, and I will wish for a little more solitude. Boy, I've gotta work on the balance a bit!

Kinship Redeemer

This is something from last weeks sermon, which I wrote a week ago, and have been mulling all week. I have not yet been to church today.

Tonight at church we had a “guest speaker.” He was from our newly enfolded church in West Seattle, to become “Mars Hill West Seattle.”

He had an interesting sermon, which I liked, and also fought internally with. It was about family, and kinship redeemer. I usually hate sermons about family. I usually get upset, feel angry and bitter, and then end up crying (which I did). Which are things I don’t like to do (and I didn’t like it tonight, either). I also don’t like sermons about kinship redeemer, because, while I know that Jesus is our kinship redeemer, it still makes me feel angry that I feel a lack, or maybe don’t see one that has been in place. It isn’t something I like contemplating, even though the new testament version when Jesus solves everything is really a much better answer than the old testament version.

Anyway, while mulling all of those things, I started thinking about how Muslim women often get outcast from their families (there is an interesting and sad article in a recent TIME or NEWSWEEK about it), and how sometimes nobody in their family steps forward to "redeem" them (quotes mine), and indeed, they become forgotten and disowned, or thrown into prison. Then I started thinking about what it would be like to have a "Kinship Redeem" house, or some version thereof. Ideally, it could be a branch-off of my old idea about a bed and breakfast with a big main house and smaller houses or cabins throughout a nice little property. Very dreamy and probably unrealistic, of course, but who's to say it can't happen?

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Of Pipes and Spins

I am home sick, even though it's not really sick other than spinning. This dizziness feels worse in the last week, which I'm not sure is a good thing.

Over the weekend, I mentioned it to my mom, and she said that she and her sisters have it, and they take a certain type of vitamin to alleviate it. It feels so reassuring that they have it, or at least know what I'm talking about. In a little while, I'll trot on up to the store to get some, but I can't stand up for very long. It's been nice to take little naps throughout the day, though.

Another little adventure I didn't count on is my tub plugging up. I have been keeping my eye on it, because it has been a little slow to drain, and I've been doing the baking soda/vinegar washes to keep it cleaned. Yesterday it still had some water in it in the morning, which I thought was weird, so I drain-o'd it. This morning when I got out of the shower, it started filling up instead of draining!! The stuff that filled the tub was NOT shower water, either! I tried to put the plug in, and then it started coming in through the top valve (the one where excess water is supposed to leave!) It felt a little like a monster movie, watching something creep into my house uninvited!!

Since I came home from work early, I called the managers and had them send some one out to work on it. There has been someone working on it since 11:30, and now (at 4:00) it is STILL filling up. There have been loud grinding noises and (more recently) mumbling and swearing at this clog. I've been trying to ignore it (hence the naps).

Still better than the [small] house fire I had Tuesday morning, (no details, just a teaser) so I'm not terribly worried about this.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Mind Agonies

I hate the games my brain plays with my emotions. Maybe it isn't even my brain. Maybe it's my emotions playing with my brain??

I am looking for a new job, and I hate that when I'm filling out applications or looking online at ads, my brain automatically tells me how dumb I am, or the million different reasons I'm not good enough, not experienced or (most certainly of all) that I don't have enough education.

It is making my confidence plummet, and I'm frustrated that it has only taken one evening of looking to make that happen. I know when I go to interviews, I don't feel that way at all, so I am not sure why this stage of job hunting phases me so badly.

I wish I could tame my brain. I know that I have had success when I've done that before, so why does it seem to not work right now?

Attack of the Bugs!

I keep finding earwigs in my apartment. I'm surprised because I haven't seen many/any before (only spiders) and I keep finding them lately.

My trusty windex will keep me safe...